I love watching videos of my friends kiddos singing and dancing and counting. Asking questions and drawing and playing. And every single time I end up with a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes.

At 3 years 4 months old Max can’t recite his ABCs, he can almost count to 10. At 5 Leos words are still sometimes unintelligible and he can’t read a first reader book or write his first name clearly.

I just want one thing, one neurotypical thing to happen for my kids at the “normal” age. Just one. So far at 5 and 3 that hasn’t happened. So far at 5 and 3 this has been missing. And I know we are on our own schedule but damn if it wouldn’t be nice to hit a mark when other kids do.